Friday, October 25, 2013
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
1. That I can't be forgiven from my sin
2. That I'm going to do something wrong, just don't know what
3. That I'm lying about OCD
4. Images of cutting self (the usual)
1. Confessing guilt, I feel like I have to say something... Apologizing for being a burden
2. Avoidance of prayer
Can't think of compulsions. I am doing better and that is what matters.
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
I am trying to figure out if I have scrupulosity or not? I do spend the day researching my faith. I feel relief thinking that is what it is. It started recently but me trying to be a better Christian started recently as well. I realize I'm not trying to help others or read the bible. Im obsessing over the fact I cant take communion. I fear prayer sometimes and I have inappropriate images come into my head while I do pray. I find myself praying over and over till I got it right. Sometimes I fall asleep. Ive done that for years. I just didnt think that is what it was. I felt ashamed at first, like this itself offended God. But I have some relief now. Goodnight.
Thursday, October 10, 2013
Tuesday, October 08, 2013
Monday, October 07, 2013
So look forward to the new work and what is to be my updated blog.