Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Started a group

I've tried to start a meetup group when I was having bad OCD symptoms the first time. I have gone on and off on trying to get it going. It is a group for people with OCD, which is hard to get people to meet about evidentally. I get one person at a time to meet me. I will just keep on trying as I go. The others I've met with have offered to help. But even not that many people are there to meet it is helpful talking to others with the same problem. It is interesting to see the similarities that people have to you. For instance I had a conversation that this other person plays games when they feel stressed out. So we started to talk about computer games. I play computer games, mainly Diablo 3 to help me out when thoughts are bad. I also try Tetris, which works pretty good.

But I keep scheduling these meetings with nobody but the same couple of people signing up when I have about 15 people in the group. I guess I will just keep trying. Meetup is pretty neat other than that. I have used it to meet people in more than one mother group. Those are pretty successful.

Nothing else new. Till next time.

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Minnie for Halloween

We bought my baby girl her Halloween costume. We let her pick it for the first time. She chose Minnie Mouse and didn't want to take off the costume when we tried it on her at home. It was beautiful watching her twirl around in it. I had to put her in an old costume to get her out of her new one.

I can't wait to dress her up next week. That's what makes thr holidays fun.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

More about my thoughts

My brain is plagued with thoughts and I wonder how I am going to deal with this the next few weeks. My meds were changed up so I have to adjust.

I was able to get out of the house today to do shopping and run errands with my mom and daughter. I wish I knew if that brings my stress level down or not.

I look up eposodic OCD and depression. It does little to aleviate me, but I feel compelled to all the same. Just doing that is related to the illness. What is interesting is some believe it is a neurological even though labelled as psychiatric. I wonder if more attention would be given if it was neurological. I feel like there is so much more research to be done.

Well, I am waiting for my daughter to wake up. Its her nap time. Any minute now...

Friday, October 12, 2012

Sprained Ankle

I went to OCD clinic a couple of days ago. It was a three hour interview. I went through my entire life history and guess what... I'm still OCD. The only difference is I'm eposodic. All that means is they are doing my meds differently.

Then the next day I thought I'd have fun with my mom and daughter at an animal park with a fall festival. My little one chased a pig, played in a bouncy house, and ate fresh apples with cider. Then I went down this big hay slide and hit my foot on the side, and spraining my ankle.

So I have OCD, a cold and a sprained ankle. But, life is good:)

Till next time.

Tuesday, October 09, 2012

Nothing deep

I love that I now have an app where I can easily post from my phone!

I have an appointment tomarrow at an OCD clinic. That is all that is on my mind recently. I am also trying to start a group for people with OCD as well. I had one person come. That's a start.

I'll post how the clinic goes. That's about it.

Monday, October 08, 2012


About setting up home

Further OCD Mess

I've had a good stent of time where I was happy and sane. I don't know if I give credit to the medication or to other changes in my life. One way or another, I was sane. Then a few days ago, just like a switch, my OCD came back. I've had episodes where I feel completely crazy and want to cry. You fight compulsions, that is probably why I feel crazey. I am heavily obsessing and avoiding compulsions other than some counting. I've read all I can about OCD, so that doesn't help me anymore. So now I going to a top specialist and see what happens there. I hope I have a good review when I am done. If not I am told I will go to a top specialist in NYC. I am thinking this one will be good enough though. I don't have much confidence in my current doctor, though he did actually get my symptoms down for awhile. I just don't like that he doesn't respect my faith as well. I just know I don't want to go back to him telling him symptoms have returned. I want off my meds... I don't think that is a possibility though. I will have to discuss it with the new psychiatrist that I have to travel about an hour and a half to get to by the way. I guess that isn't too bad. I just the traffic that it takes to get there. But that will be fine all the same. I fear most of all telling someone new all about my experiences.I have to go back through my paperwork to make sure I wrote everything down...