Friday, July 15, 2005

Passion and interest

What makes life interesting or boring? I have been wondering that myself since I've been commented on how boring my blog is on another site... I know it was a personal hit because I was also called a bitch.

First I was thinking of simply writing a couple of questions for others to answer, for instance: What is it that makes your life interesting and what is it that makes you happy?

But then, I just have to keep writing...

My personal belief is that there is no life without passion. Right now I am in turmoil because I am trying to find my passion again. I feel like I can't function without that inner drive and a deep inner love for what I do. I'm not sure if others have this problem, but regular work is difficult for me unless there is that drive. How did I get my BA? I have to say that there was no way I could have done it in any other area... Maybe art, but that's beside the point. Passion is what gives my life purpose and has been the root of my happiness.

All of this is derived from God. I would have no passion for art, music, history and philosophy without recieving it through him. So I found reason to have more of a religious bent in my art and through my studies. I have also felt that I need other changes in my life. This results in me trying to cut out most of my drinking and other such things. Not being single anymore has been helpful in this process, but it isn't the reason I've been trying to improve.

So does this make my life boring? I really don't care if it does because it makes me happy. I have been happier recently than I have been in a long time. So I will show you what makes me happy and hope it is of some interest to my viewers along the way.

I mentioned whenever I first started this blog that I am better at conveying my emotions and what I am through my art than through words... I feel that I'm not getting myself across to people with words. There is this barrier with my writing that my drawings and my paintings don't have.

So there will be more art later and whatever else I find interesting at the time... Later:)

3 comments:

tim said...

I just wrote a long story and then backspaced it all. And it happened again. So I will just tell you that passion is everywhere. It is the love the you feel for you mother, the hope you have for a newborn baby, the leaves falling from the trees, the snow falling to the ground, a butterfly spreading its wings for the very first time. It is life! Without passion there is no life. Without passion there is no love. Without passion there is no ART. Without passion there is no you.
Without passion there is no me.

Well, the thing that really needs to be said is that passion is everywhere. But what truly differentiates between passion and your true passion is what brings the most happiness to your life. With me it is my daughter. I thought I was completely lost in this huge world until she came along. Now I can go for the rest of my life, living only to watch her grow. To watch her learn and become whatever she will become. And so you ask what is my passion and I tell you that it is my beautiful Lilija. For her I do everything that I can.

Well I'm sure this really doesn't make much sense to you but it is understood by the author. Anyway, tell Art I said hello.

vaasu said...

COmpletely agree with you!!

Anonymous said...

I think that sometimes our passion is best expressed without words, such as with your art (which I admit I don't get) or through music. Believe it or not, I get more out of music without lyrics or opera being spoken in a language I don't understand. Passion is your emotion.

I'm a 47-year-old transportation professional, part-time preacher, and part-time student. Right now I'm just running on auto-pilot. I don't feel about anything one way or the other, and I think it is because I'm getting close to burning the candle at both ends.

Don't forget to reconnect with yourself and, above all else, stay connected to the Lord. He is the only One who can give any of us a clear sense of purpose.