Others "Why I support McCain"

To go along with the last post I decided to look up on Google blog search "why I support McCain." Just for the hell of it. Same type of thing as the last. Here we go:

1. Blogger supports McCain because of his past military service to country, shows a motivation of desire to serve the country currently, he stands for his core principles, he believes life begins at conception, believes in winning war against terrorism and others (long post and hard to put into one sentence).

2. Blogger stated he supports McCain for he effectively argues against leftist arguments.

3. Blogger supports McCain because of being prolife, service to country, supporting sanctity of marriage, supporting home schooling, morals, and preserving American Heritage.

4. Blogger supports McCain because of upholding human dignity and right to human life.

5. Blogger supports McCain because he understands basics of our economy, because of his leadership capabilities in fighting corruption, and experience to lead our country and will not be pushed around.

6. Blogger supports McCain because everyone's taxes will be lower and McCain's health care bill is cheaper.

7. Blogger said that McCain was able to stand up against Reagan with the Beirut Barracks bombing. (I have to admit I don't remember that one)

8. Blogger said they support McCain because he is a hero and that the blogger respects honor over reputation.

9. Blogger said they understand that we can't pull out of Iraq too quickly and feels safer with McCain.

10. Blogger said they believe McCain is lead more by Jesus Christ.

Time for bed, so I will follow up further on yesterday's post and today's post tomorrow. Goodnight!

Others "Why I support Obama"

I've been trying to find why people are supporting Barak Obama. I did google blog search of "Why I support Obama" because I didn't want to get news (and skipped over news blogs). I am not going to post the blogs that came up because I don't wish for the particular bloggers to think I am attacking them individually (people really get personal about this stuff). I also did not use any blogs I am linked to currently. This is the views of ten bloggers in their individual posts:

1. Blogger doesn't believe in the Zionists

2. Blogger believes in socialized medicine, believes in "spreading the wealth", taking troops out of an illegal war,

3. Blogger believes Obama will be a liberal supporter of Israel

4. Blogger says they like Obama's message of "hope" and "change", to clarify, hope of improvement from Bush and change from negative politics from McCain and Palin.

5. Blogger believes because Obama was a Constitutional Law Professor that he will uphold and defend the Constitution.

6. Blogger supports Obama because of his disability plan listed on his site.

7. Blogger said that he has temperament of leader, wants to bring us together, he is young, energetic and slow to anger.

8. Blogger says because the war is based on lies, because of Republicans terrorizing us saying they are the only ones who can protect United States, abortion, and they don't like Sarah Palin.

9. Blogger is a veteran who supports bringing an end to the Iraq War and that Obama brings renewed patriotism and hope.

10. Blogger believes in Obama economic plan, in foriegn affairs, and coming from multicultural background will be good for the US. I believe the blogger is saying that they like how Obama is mixture of east and western cultures.

This was done out of real curiosity. I have not had someone give me reasons for their support of this candidate. I have received answers like 4, 7, 8 (very common). I have to admit that 1 and 3 is amusing that I got that.

Actually I will have to continue this post at another time, so no depth, I have to drive home and will have no internet there. So till the next time I have internet!

Short Post

And this article about a woman who had a "B" carved on her face.

Can only use the computer while working, so I'm not going to put up much at this time. You can make your own judgement on these. I am just appauled by actions of radicals in this country.

I'll write later:)

UPDATE:

Ha, it seems the girl carved the "B" on her own face. Freakin' people.

Immigration and Palin (again)

I have to say that much that I have heard about Palin has been on personal level and her social conservative stances. What about in other areas. For instance, what is her stance on immigration? Do they even have a problem with this in Alaska?

Now McCain did hit a hot ticket when it comes to someone relating to the rest of the country with energy, but immigration is hardly heard of and that worries me. I looked it up and there is article after article that says that she is silent in that arena. This is a big deal in Florida. There are protesters every weekend in my area from the policies of having a "sanctuary city."

What does this mean? We have an under class in this society. This is almost like an unspeakables, I think that is in Indian culture but I am not sure. These are people that are brought to this country (believe me they could not make it to my area otherwise, they ride bikes for transportation), for no other reason to be servers. Supposedly to do work that whites will not, though I saw them do the same jobs not too many years ago. They have no rights as citizens and they will not because of thier status. How are they different from slaves?

Now the argument is that this is better than their country. Now I am sure it is, but how will they ever make their country better if they are not there. We work for our country, why can't they work for theirs?

Okay enough of that, I meant to write on Palin and not immigration. Basically, I am not completely sold. This is even with Sean Hannity and Rush Limbaugh seeming to be perfectly behind her and other strong conservatives. I think the reason I am not mainly is because I have never seen McCain as a conservative and I don't understand how just picking her makes him one.

Will he actually take a more conservative stance? Or is he just using her to bring in the votes? I should be happy with just her, but I need to see more of her to decide and see more of her without just constant attacks. Can't people just ask her questions without attacking her? I have lost faith in the media long ago, but I keep watching with hope to get some accurate information.

Enough ranting I am about to fall over in exhaustion. Drank night quill before writing this and my eyes are growing heavier and heavier. Surprised I can get coherent thoughts out. Goodnight!

Hurricane Ike

I've been on and off the phone with my parents since Ike hit. I'm sure you've heard that the entire Houston metropolitan area is without power. I've been trying to talk them into going to Central Texas to stay with my brother, but they insist on riding this one out at home. Though no power, the school has power for air conditioning and my dad doesn't feel like in getting caught on the road with everyone else leaving the area.

So hopefully the electric companies can get everything together soon. I thank God not too many problems have occurred otherwise. Their home is fine, but they aren't close to the coast. I do pray for those who lost more to the storm. Thankfully not too many lives were lost.

And they get a sort of break tonight, a cold front.

Well, I've been focusing on getting information to my parents. They haven't been through a hurricane since the 60s, but they seem okay. Cleaning out the pool and barbecuing. My only experience was Katrina and thankfully we have been good so far this season in my area in Florida.

But other than problems with those idiots who didn't evacuate in the mandatory evacuation zones, Texas seems so far to be handling this well enough. Let's see how long it takes to get the electricity back!

Palin and the Conservative Base

One of my Aunt's who I consider a strong conservative woman told me when Hillary was first running for president about how she had girls who said that they would not vote for her based on the fact that they didn't think a woman could be a president. For that reason, she felt she should. I heard that argument more than one time, as I am sure that same reasoning has been used on several occasions for more than one candidate during this election. At that time. I didn't say anything in response. I was actually quite surprised that she was taking quite an emotional stance on who she wants to be president. I did have another woman in my family tell me the other day that she would still be writing in Hillary. It was the only logical choice she could think of. For what reason? She would be a woman president.

When I heard of Sarah Palin the first time I really didn't know what to think. I had heard Rush Limbaugh one afternoon mention her in passing, but other than that, what regular working American knows of the governor of Alaska unless you would happen to be from that area? I went ahead and listened to her acceptance speech and read up on her. Basically, I wanted to know as much as I could on her. Though I have to say that my initial response was excitement. I heard another woman say a similar thing on the radio today, don't remember the show, that she understood the emotional response to Obama for the first time. Here was someone that a regular woman could relate too. Not a former first lady that wears nothing but pant suits. No this is a woman with a family who actually built up a political career. She did so with doing what she THOUGHT WAS RIGHT as well, not what was popular. Initial response was quite exciting. I have to admit there was an emotional response to this. I expected possibly a similar response from others.

So I called around and I watched for response. But it wasn't there. Those who say that they vote for Hillary because she was a woman responded that they would not vote for just any woman that McCain through their way. They wouldn't vote for an inexperienced woman that he could throw out. She was no different from what was of the regular administration today. That this was a weak attempt to persuade women to vote for McCain.

These women were lying to themselves and to me when they said that they were voting for a woman. They were voting for a woman of their generation and of the old liberal and populist ideals. They still would never consider a strong conservative woman with love of her family and her country as one that could rise to power. That very much goes against everything they believe in.

I want to say I can't believe the response to McCain and Palin ticket, but I can. It is still an emotional and socialist attack. When I look more at the pick for Palin, I don't think there is anyway that this was an attempt to get to the feminists or the women who were going to vote for Hilary. No, McCain should be close enough to the stance of Hilary to do that on his own. This was an attempt to gather up his base.

Everyone of the Republican Party's regular base were waiting and wanting for McCain to give them something, anything to show that he was not taking the Republican Party in the same way as the Democratic one. Yet time after time he was disowning conservatives and giving into the ideas of the left. This is shown in him still stating in his belief in climate change problems and his stance on immigration (which I am still curious of what Palin has to say on this). Every conservative thought he would pick another left leaning Republican, then bye bye base. They/we aren't exactly loyal to any party, only to what they/we believe is right.

Palin is exactly what the country needs. There are many that wish that she had been there in the presidential campaign earlier. She is a Christian and she shows in her life that she lives by Christian morals. Though as my husband has pointed out, her life could be played as a lifetime movie. She has made good decisions and she has proven that she can run a state government.

Well, in the end, I think McCain has won my vote... For now... I won't say 100%. He still has time to mess this up. But Palin was literally a perfect fit for those who had lost faith in the party. That is something that the media will never wrap their head around, the beliefs and morals of a majority of middle America. The fact that she is a woman is more of a slap in the face to feminists rather than a way of getting them to come over to the Republican Party. She shows further of feminists failure. The women that I spoke of earlier probably won't vote for McCain/Palin, but this is certainly something that shows their hypocrisy which is definitely good enough for me.

That is enough of a rant. Goodnight!

New Business and Anxiety

Well, I am not still in New England. I just realized that I haven't posted since my trip. Nothing too interesting to speak of. I had an okay time but in the end I couldn't fully enjoy it because Art couldn't. So yet again, failed vacation.

I am no longer unemployed. Now I am definitely self employed. Which means I go to an office every day and work on my own. No boss, just me. Which I find myself to be quit tough enough without anyone else over me. It is difficult to designate hours especially when you are starting off and trying to start the cash flow of the company. But I am ever hopeful.

Now brings us to today.

Its about one in the morning and I still can't sleep. I've had a lot on my mind recently though I must confess. Some I can't mention and some have been mentioned before. Infertility is always on my mind. It is a drive to have a better life style. A want for a better body or at least similar to the one I had. I got on a bike the other day and I rode it down the block. A text message went through and I stopped to check and see who it was. When I stopped an overwhelming nausea came over me. I was seeing spots and had trouble breathing. I was steady enough to set down my bike and set myself on the grass, but I didn't have the energy to do anything else. I was there for a little while before I even text Art. By the time he text back I was able to call and speak. He thinks I had a panic attack, it is possible. Regardless at that moment I thought my body failed me and I was too scared to go on. I didn't think it was my nerves at the time, but I would be lying if I said it wasn't.

So I am trying to be a little more conscience of what I eat. I need to get over my anxiety in other areas. I had to force myself to get on that bike and to ride out that day. Its like this fear of people seeing me, what if I do something wrong. A bunch of stuff comes up in my mind. Not very helpful right now. Isn't exercise suppose to decrease anxiety?

Other than above mentioned. Business is always over my head. When you work on your own, you are literally doing everything. That is a little weird to me. Everything also rides on me. If it fails, I failed. That is a lot of pressure. If I don't make it. I will probably have to go work for an a-hole again. Which that is a big portion of my drive in the first place. Even with that, it isn't saying I am not excited and that I can't do well.

Well, we will see how things go. Enough of my personal life.

Layover

Since a week to two weeks ago, I've had the most unusual time. I started a new job. It sounded like a great opportunity and the hours were better. I should have realized that it wasn't what it seemed. I don't want to get too much into it, but just as I alluded to in the earlier post they completely lied about what my responsibilities were. It does seem that this business has a lot of shady characters, or maybe its just South Florida. I'm not sure.

So I was in this position that promised more money, less time and I believed it stable. But this past week I was in a position where I felt quitting was my only option. So I left. If I wanted to be caught in an uncomfortable position I would of preferred to stay at my previous job where I had at least knew everyone from 2 years of history with the company. But that wasn't everything.

Step back a week. My plumbing had failed on more than one occasion. Lets just say that I lived through the house being flooded for the third time and had enough of it. We decided, we both have jobs; we both have extra money; I am going to get out of there. First place we looked, the perfect house. Pool in the back, the same size if not bigger than the house we had in Texas. Also, we had a great family neighborhood with a shoreline park walking distance from the house. We got approved. Everything was wonderful.

Well, that all went out the window without the security of two positions. So we are back today. We called back the guy we rent from, got the place back. No reason to risk the funds of moving. Of course, our plumbing is still broken after our landlord came to fix it two times already.

So we said f-it, we are out of here. I am on a layover right now on our way to the New England area. Not too sure where we are going, but hey good timing. If you look at the weather a hurricane is headed right for our home state, possibly our county.

So I will let you know how it goes. Life is interesting.

This sucks... Yet again

Actually it has been a few years since I was unemployed, but even now I remember how miserable it was. I don't feel to bad about it this time. There is nothing like moving from a stable position to one where they lied to you about its stability and exactly what your role would be and pretty much everything about the position. So, I am once again unemployed. But I am optimistic as I said before.

I will actively search and put myself out everywhere and hope that I get a bite, an interview or anything soon. Since I am a recruiter, might as well work on the side. I am good at it.

Lets see how this goes.

MT 13:1 - 23

On that day, Jesus went out of the house and sat down by the sea.
Such large crowds gathered around him
that he got into a boat and sat down,
and the whole crowd stood along the shore.
And he spoke to them at length in parables, saying:
“A sower went out to sow.
And as he sowed, some seed fell on the path,
and birds came and ate it up.
Some fell on rocky ground, where it had little soil.
It sprang up at once because the soil was not deep,
and when the sun rose it was scorched,
and it withered for lack of roots.
Some seed fell among thorns, and the thorns grew up and choked it.
But some seed fell on rich soil, and produced fruit,
a hundred or sixty or thirtyfold.
Whoever has ears ought to hear.”

The disciples approached him and said,
“Why do you speak to them in parables?”
He said to them in reply,
“Because knowledge of the mysteries of the kingdom of heaven
has been granted to you, but to them it has not been granted.
To anyone who has, more will be given and he will grow rich;
from anyone who has not, even what he has will be taken away.
This is why I speak to them in parables, because
they look but do not see and hear but do not listen or understand.
Isaiah’s prophecy is fulfilled in them, which says:
You shall indeed hear but not understand,
you shall indeed look but never see.
Gross is the heart of this people,
they will hardly hear with their ears,
they have closed their eyes,
lest they see with their eyes
and hear with their ears
and understand with their hearts and be converted,
and I heal them.

“But blessed are your eyes, because they see,
and your ears, because they hear.
Amen, I say to you, many prophets and righteous people
longed to see what you see but did not see it,
and to hear what you hear but did not hear it.

“Hear then the parable of the sower.
The seed sown on the path is the one
who hears the word of the kingdom without understanding it,
and the evil one comes and steals away
what was sown in his heart.
The seed sown on rocky ground
is the one who hears the word and receives it at once with joy.
But he has no root and lasts only for a time.
When some tribulation or persecution comes because of the word,
he immediately falls away.
The seed sown among thorns is the one who hears the word,
but then worldly anxiety and the lure of riches choke the word
and it bears no fruit.
But the seed sown on rich soil
is the one who hears the word and understands it,
who indeed bears fruit and yields a hundred or sixty or thirtyfold.”

Happy 4th of July!

Hello everyone. Just stopping by to say happy 4th of July! I always loved this holiday. There are always barbeque's and fire work displays. Growing up this was always a holiday where I was with family. Of course at this time most of my family is scattered. My brother in San Antonio, my father in Huntsville and my mother practically across the globe from us all at this time. I am down here in South Florida with my in laws and an overly anxious dog when it comes to fireworks and thunderstorms. Needless to say it makes the summer a headache here.

But regardless I think it is good to remember what makes this country great and to remember that patriotism is still a good thing when you are from a great country where there is reason to be proud. The 4th of July is to celebrate the freedom from Britain and the end of our fight for independence. Strangely enough I believe that this entire fight started from unfair taxation and it also crazy to think of the progress this nation has gone through since its start. We expanded all the way from the east to the west and we became an incredibly powerful country. Some seem ashamed about this power. I think it is better to be one of the powerful than to be one on the other side. It isn't like the American People didn't work hard to get to that place. I believe next to Japan we probably have one the most competitive countries when it comes to work and growth. Where else can people advance from rags to riches. We all have the ability to advance to incredible positions. I believe that is something great about this country that we should always fight to maintain. The freedom to pursue happiness.

Well, I am going to try and enjoy the holiday. It is great looking back and seeing pictures from 4th of July since I started this. There sure have been many changes. Hope to keep it going for awhile longer....

Time for warm milk....

I can't seem to sleep so it seems as good of time as any to write. The main things on my mind involve work and the fact I just accepted a position elsewhere. It is a little nerve wracking moving from my comfort zone of the position I've been at for the past two years. But I have to remember why I am leaving, respect, money and more time. The ultimate goal. Working for less hours and for more money. It is hard to come by with someone of my work background... which these two years is about all I have.

I spent about a week negotiating the rate and everything for the position. I feel like I moving to an executive position with how long it has taken to get hired on. Though that is definitely not the case.

Enough about work, there is plenty else going on in the world. I feel at times disconnected. Every time I look to the TV though, I can hardly believe what I hear. For instance, does anyone really like these presidential candidates? And if you do, can you provide a LEGITIMATE answer as to why? For the life of me I really do not understand. It appears to me we have a liberal and a communist running against each other. Can you guess which would be each role? Is there really a difference. Its a toss up to me.

Yeah, I use to hate labels, but I really don't care anymore. There seem to be quite legitimate reasons for labels. There is not some way to understand the reason why everyone feels the way they do. Some people just come about their decisions because they "feel like it" or by faith. Now, as a person of faith I do not count against anyone who may come to their decisions with the backing of faith... Provided they still have some amount of reason behind it. And Saint Thomas Aquinas proved many years ago that we can come to decisions on faith WITH the backing of reason. Though I do ask one thing, if you do come by your decision upon faith alone, WHY WON'T YOU AT LEAST ADMIT IT. Few will on the side of liberalism, and no it isn't just the guidance of Ann Coulter that lead me to these thoughts. You realize this in basic conversations.

For instance, try bringing up the topic of abortion or gay rights? Can you legitimately argue these with most people? No you can't. Most people will make decisions on these topics based upon faith and not reason. Now I do admit my faith does guide me with both. But once someone can convince me that gay rights and abortion go along with natural law... I will at least listen, and don't think I haven't read the argument before... At least with abortion.

Anyway. I am going to attempt to sleep again. Since I will be utterly shocked if more than my two to three fans reads this. Two of the three will read in disgust, but hey, what am I but truthful. Goodnight!

How to find a job?

Now if you are looking for a new position in a hurry, job seeking can be like a full time job in itself. It takes research, writing and primarily knowing how to correctly market yourself to the position that you believe you are eligible.

1. First it takes having knowledge of your work history and references. It is best to get your complete resume (at least the bread and butter of it, education, work history, etc). Now the reason I say the bread and butter is because you may be forming your resume differently or enhancing certain parts of your experience depending on position.

This actually takes time unless you are literally straight out of school. For example, I realized that I completely forgot my supervisor's name and contact information for one of my prior positions. I speak awhile trying to track it down to realize I would have to improvise because he did not appear to be there anymore.

2. Second I use all of the regular sites (or a few, there are definitely more):

indeed.com
simplyhired.com
careerbuilder.com
monster.com
linkedin.com

Apply to ANYTHING that sounds interesting to you. You never know what could happen. The last thing you want to do is to be too picky. Sometimes it is best to take what you can get and keep searching. You may not find your dream job right off the bat, but I am getting ahead of myself.

Put up your resume, MAKE IT PUBLIC. Don't be afraid of employers and recruiters contacting you. In today's day and age recruiters are your friend. I do not just say that because I am one. More than likely if a recruiter calls you for one position that you don't like, maybe he will know of others that might be a better fit. Hear them out, that is ALL THEY DO! They get people into positions, they look at resumes and they know of other employers that you might be interested in. Honestly, I would listen to opportunities even when you are not actively looking, you never know if they have a better deal.

Now you notice I DID NOT say get out your local newspaper. Yes, there are still positions on your ONLINE paper and the regular paper. In doing that you are missing most employment opportunities. You would be better off looking at Craigslist now a days than that. It is knowing where people are posting positions. Smaller companies might go for the free or cheaper sites, that is why you also use indeed.com or simplyhired.com which searches multiple sites at once.


3. Cover letter's are required! I do not apply for anything without a cover letter to the hiring manager. This entails of where I found the position, my skills that show why I am the ideal candidate for the position and about wanting an interview with the hiring manager in person.

Now this may also mean reading the description of each position and editing your resume as well before you submit it to bring out certain previous skills. As I said earlier, it can be like a full time position.

4. The interview! Yeah, it is great when you get to this point. Sometimes it takes a day and sometimes it takes a month. No matter how long it takes it is good to be PREPARED! Read up as much as you can on the company. It is actually not only to find out details to throw out in the interview to show you did your research, but you also want to protect yourself from falling into a crappy position or a scam. If they ask for money to take the position, RUN AWAY!

Back on topic, have two edited resumes with you to take to the interview with references included. Here is where you have to put in money, have a nice dark suit. Girls, no high heals or flashy tops (it is not always a horny guy you are interviewing with, and even if it is that is not the best way to start off a position). Guys, black or charcoal gray suit with black dress shoes and do not wear a red tie (or a purple one.. Which brings to mind). No crazy color's or backpacks. You should be business professional. Believe me it matters when you interview with many applicants, they will disqualify BEFORE YOU SPEAK if you dress wrong.

Be prepared of basic questions, why you were interested in the position particularly, about why you are making a move, where you see yourself in five years. Sometimes it is best to seriously think of those things before you go. They are going to expect answers.

Now BE PREPARED TO ASK QUESTIONS. You should know about what you are going into and try to find out as much as possible about the position when there. If you are nervous, write them down. I always bring in a pad and paper with me in a folder with my resume. There are usually details that I need and write before I leave.

5. Follow up after interview. Be sure to have name and number of the hiring manager and follow up to show your interest. Now do not stalk.... That might piss them off, but it doesn't hurt to try and keep your name in front of them. Some write thank you letters. I actually have not done this. If it is effective please let me know. I have written emails though to them, and sometimes that works.


Hopefully after going through a few interviews you will land something. I did accept one position during the interview. I do not think I will do that again. I prefer to go back home and discuss with my husband or ANYONE else about the position before I accept it. Want to make sure I am not crazy to other's standards for taking the position. Also, it sometimes is best to think things over.

6. My final tip is to be respectful of your previous employer no matter the reason leaving and give a two week notice. They may not take it, but it is best to not burn any bridges. You never know when you will need anything from someone you use to work with.

That brings me to conclusion. Even going through this entire process of finding a job, I can say that most jobs you will probably get is through NETWORKING. Tell friends and family that you are looking (as long as they are not connected with current employer if you are still working there). They may know someone looking. I don't know how many times that is how people get their next position. I almost moved to a new position because of someone I worked with previously was hiring at with their new employer. Those can be the best because you have an in.

Now, this reminds me that I could write a book on this stuff. It really isn't too complicated to figure out, but it is something that you SHOULD read up on if you haven't searched in awhile or if this is your first time.

Good luck to anyone else who is looking!

Fortune Teller

I had gone to a fortune teller when I was in Amarillo, twice. I was told that I will be living near the beach and will have a happy marriage. I will have four children. I remember the lady had me in tears the first time I was there. She told me to pray, that I had temporarily lost my way and to get out of that life quickly. I felt like she was reading my mind. She told me to close my eyes and to stick out my hand, but my eyes stayed open and she stared right into them.

The first time it was a creepy experience. She told me to keep everything to myself. Because I do not believe fully in the credibility of such people, I am posting on it. In fact the second time I went she gave quite faulty information. At the time I first went she said I have a question for her. I did have a question, but I was afraid to ask. My question was if the guy I was with was the one... The one for the great marriage, the four kids and the life on the beach. I did not ask though. I refused to. I was afraid of the answer because part of me knew that it was a no, but I wasn't ready to let go.

Well, regardless of what she said, I am married to a great guy and we live right near the beach. I don't know much about the others. She said I would meet one of my best friends in a position where I am sitting in front of a computer. She said that I would be a buisness woman that travels. I don't know what else. Doesn't sound too bad. It gives hope at least. She also gave such specific information I keep thinking, what the hell was she talking about. Maybe my entire life I think back to that lady every once and awhile and think of what she got right or wrong. I was thinking about it right now about the four kids with a life that she described. It sounds like a nice dream regardless of what is to come.

But I know to trust in God, but sometimes I wonder about the lives that God leads us on. Was he leading her? Was she a false profit? I don't know. It is just a memory that comes back to me every once and awhile.

Goodnight to any who read;)

Job Change?

I am contemplating going between positions.

Why? I feel like I have to ask myself. I have to be very sure that I am ready. I have a position where I am respected in my office and I have control over the day to day activities. But, the control only goes so far.

I work in recruiting or sales... Same difference to me. This job consists of long hours. I sit in my seat for nine hours a day. I work for commission, so I am driven for to not take breaks. I had times that I had trouble taking lunch. They don't have regular breaks, just 7-12 then lunch, 1-5 (usually 6pm), and I go home. It is close to home, so that is fine. I am just tired.

Also, the commission structure is fine for temporary employment, but when your client goes to permanent the commission is questionable. Then there is the turnover at my position, which hurts you because of everyone being teamed together.

I will stop bitching.... I do get along with the people, which was one thing that makes this hard. I have also made money off of this, but the last complaint is why it is not consistent. Someone will bank off my efforts though.

I have a friend who is waving more immediate money in front of me at another recruiting company. Now, there is the initial build up, but there is the larger commission, larger base and less hours. Not too much farther from home either.

So more pay for less hours is good. Now I just have to interview. I feel secure that I am going between positions right at my two year mark. It does seem like a good deal. I will let you know if I take it. The only thing that makes me not want to if I get pregnant... But I wouldn't have done a thing if I waited for everything because I might get pregnant. Why wait for something that may not happen for another year or ever?

I just leave it to God's hands. I asked for an out and he handed it to me. I can only believe that it is his work. Till next time...

Infertility

Not too long ago my OBGYN told me that I am infertile. Strangely enough it was on my birthday. I wasn't very surprised though. I'm not exactly an advocate of birth control and I've now been married for two years.

Well, my doctor put me on 50 mg of clomid because of having PCOS (polycystic ovary syndrome). Yes, same thing that Kate had on John and Kate + 8... In fact I think she got pregnant on he same stuff I'm on. I was glad to at least know what it was. Through this entire time I was thinking that all of these people growing up making us terrified of teenage pregnancy or getting pregnant from unsafe sex; and all the warnings of getting pregnant from just having sex once was absolutely crazy. They must be lying. Or maybe the formula to getting pregnant is getting REALLY drunk and then picking up someone at the bar for the night to where you have no clue what is going on in the morning. I've spoke with several single mothers. It seems to be an effective model. Well, I am not going to do that since I already have a husband and everything.

Well, I am on my first month of clomiphene or clomid and took day 4-8 as directed. I am using the basal thermometer and using a chart. I have a direct days to conceive and what not. I am not sure if I have ovulated or not. I think I might have, but that is the problem with PCOS is that you don't ovulate. The clomiphene (generic clomid) just created a surge of emotions and hotflashes. I kind of see why everyone says it is difficult time going through fertility treatment. It is like having PMS continuously through the month.

Well, I am day 15, so we will see how it goes. I pray that clomid works. Part of me thinks that it was God's gift giving me that answer and the medication on my birthday. Baby fever has been a frustration till now. Now I feel productive, like I am doing something to help this. I just hope I don't have twins or more. One is good.... But there is always the 10% chance of getting multiples. Look up multiples and clomid though. It looks pretty common on google.

So we will see how it goes.... Till next time...

Baby names

Though not pregnant, baby's are on the brain. I have talked with several girls and it seems to be norm for girls to have an idea of their future children's names before they are even married. I was thinking about that myself. I have no definite names in mind. I am not sure if it matters too much. But what would I use when I have kids? What would I name a boy or girl?

I do have one definite standard, the name has to be Christian. Just standard, other than that I guess this is something that goes on feeling and also it has to go with my last name, so nothing starting with the same letter.

Now I could also go with names in my and my husband's family (this is taking into effect above standards); Boy names : Frank, Duran, Jessie, Matthew, William, Joseph, Michael, Arthur, Salvatore, Eleazar, Alfredo. That is just a few... For Girl names: Anne or Ana, Mary or Mary Anne, Elizabeth, Claire, Marlyn, Barbara, Julie.

Now with these I am going no further than grandparents. I do have names past that, some of the girl names are pretty, but I don't have them with me.

Now there is also the possibility of using names from those inspirational or of famous figures that we admire... That sort of thing. For boys: Thomas (St. Thomas Aquinas), Theodore (president), William (William F. Buckley), Aristotle (maybe not, but just comes to mind)... I have to think more on that one. For girls: Anne (multiple figures and family ties, so this one is strong), Marie (this is my patron saint's name).

So what is my preference. If you can't tell I am more settled on girl name than boy. But no reason to rush into things.